I just noticed that the title of my past few posts have not been synchronised.
Anyway, I'm back from my short hiatus... life has been boring thus far. I've so much to blog about but yet, I can't put all the things I've went through into words.
So my first batch of cadets has finally passed out last Friday. I remember seeing my friends posting about their experiences when their Recruits passed out.. something that goes along the line as such:
"Watching them grow from Recruits to Privates has given me that sense of satisfaction and at the same time, I'm happy to see them becoming more adapted to the army life. I have no doubt that I can rely upon them when the time comes to fight along side with them."
Though I'm not training Privates but I guess the feeling is similar. Seeing them passed out from their Foundation Term as they embark on their journey in their respective vocations for Professional Term has given me the sense of satisfaction, knowing I've done my best to groom them. Regardless of what other people might say, I'm proud to have them as my first batch of cadets. I will remember them for years to come, I'm sure of that.
I've also taken the time to rewatch some of the good old animes that I've watched when I was a kid. Animes like DragonBall never fail to amuse me... Ah, that sense of nostalgia... Oh by the way, I've also found some nice songs...songs like "My Immortal" (Yes, laugh at me) and "Perfect". These are some of the nice songs that I chanced upon when I was blog hopping. Very smoothing and have nice lyrics... great songs to add into your playlist.
I wish I could blog more about several other issues but I guess I would have to leave it to another day. Gotta go! Ciaos!
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Post no.6 - "Nothingness"
Really, that post title has no correlation with this entry.
So I've been having outfield trainings this past week... many things have happened, things that caused me to be angry, to be unhappy... or to feel irritated. I don't know why but ever since I took on the role of an Instructor, I became intolerant towards mistakes committed by my trainees... mistakes that I could've committed when I was a trainee myself. While I understand deep down that things don't usually go my way, I was really angry when my cadets committed stupid mistakes... or when they told me they wanted to give up. Looking at them jolted the memories of me during my cadet days. Those were the days that I could afford to reveal my sadness and my fatigue. Those were the days... when I could afford to live by without having to care about anything.
Sigh....
Even as I am typing this entry, I'm still thinking of my section mates, my commanders and my friends. Maybe it is due to the fact that I was trained by strict commanders, OCs who are very regimental, I flared at my cadets when they commit stupid mistakes, breaching safety regulations. As I count down to the days my cadets have left before they passed out from their Foundation Term, I wonder if I have the opportunity to groom them into trainees who are well anchored in basics, who at least can perform simple drills and have knowledge up to Section Commander level.
I wonder..
Anyway, life has been pretty dull these past weeks. I wonder if that's why I felt very empty deep down. The thought of going through IQC is killing me.... having to march, to do ambush... platoon movements and most importantly, HCC.
So I've been having outfield trainings this past week... many things have happened, things that caused me to be angry, to be unhappy... or to feel irritated. I don't know why but ever since I took on the role of an Instructor, I became intolerant towards mistakes committed by my trainees... mistakes that I could've committed when I was a trainee myself. While I understand deep down that things don't usually go my way, I was really angry when my cadets committed stupid mistakes... or when they told me they wanted to give up. Looking at them jolted the memories of me during my cadet days. Those were the days that I could afford to reveal my sadness and my fatigue. Those were the days... when I could afford to live by without having to care about anything.
Sigh....
Even as I am typing this entry, I'm still thinking of my section mates, my commanders and my friends. Maybe it is due to the fact that I was trained by strict commanders, OCs who are very regimental, I flared at my cadets when they commit stupid mistakes, breaching safety regulations. As I count down to the days my cadets have left before they passed out from their Foundation Term, I wonder if I have the opportunity to groom them into trainees who are well anchored in basics, who at least can perform simple drills and have knowledge up to Section Commander level.
I wonder..
Anyway, life has been pretty dull these past weeks. I wonder if that's why I felt very empty deep down. The thought of going through IQC is killing me.... having to march, to do ambush... platoon movements and most importantly, HCC.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Post No.5 - "By The Way"
It's been almost a week since I last blogged. Kinda missed blogging... but at the same time, too lazy to do so. Chinese has always been my Mother Tongue and that's why I've always tried to maintain quality command of the language. Despite so, I realised that my command over the language has dropped drastically, especially ever since I returned to serving the nation. I posted a personal message on my Facebook just recently and I was surprised to be corrected for that message, especially since it was in Chinese. The friend who corrected me made me realised how long has it been since I've last used Chinese. Simple message was posted with silly mistake that I would have never thought to commit in the past. Oh well, guess I really have to start reading more articles that are written in Chinese. You readers might even get to read chinese entries posted by me in the near future. Stay tune!
Anyway, Today is National Day. Despite so, I am not really in the celebration mood probably because my "Hell Week" is not over yet. Last week was a really busy week for me as I was practically outfield all the way. Don't really like the feeling of staying outfield, but I shan't complain much especially when I don't perspire as much as my cadets.
Oh yeah, I really should start my intensive training. Eversince I took on the role as an Instructor, I've been gaining weight... so much so that I couldn't even recognise myself anymore. If I were to start running 2.4KM run now, I would sure fall flat. That being said, I have to really start training hard because my Instructor Qualification Course is starting soon. That means, I have to take the Fitness Test, the SOC and PASSING THEM to qualify myself as an Instructor.
I started watching the Taiwanese Drama "Knock Knock Loving You" yesterday and it is really a good drama. You guys should catch it if you people are free! Oh yeah, If you guys have any good dramas to introduce to me, you can always message me... especially since I'm running out of dramas to watch. GOOD dramas actually. It's ironic how my command of chinese has gone rusty especially when I've been watching Chinese dramas recently. Taiwanese Dramas to be exact. You people can also introduce good Koreans dramas and Japanese dramas too!
I really can't stand people who whin all day. Like really, if you know you have to change, then start changing yourself for the better! What's the point of posting messages that attract attention or for the purpose of gaining others' compassion? Scolding yourself won't make your life any happier anyway. Besides, it's really annoying in my opinion. I'm sorry if I sound really mean here, especially when I was guilty of such acts in the past.
By the way, Happy National Day to all the dear readers and friends out there! Have a good day ahead.
Anyway, Today is National Day. Despite so, I am not really in the celebration mood probably because my "Hell Week" is not over yet. Last week was a really busy week for me as I was practically outfield all the way. Don't really like the feeling of staying outfield, but I shan't complain much especially when I don't perspire as much as my cadets.
Oh yeah, I really should start my intensive training. Eversince I took on the role as an Instructor, I've been gaining weight... so much so that I couldn't even recognise myself anymore. If I were to start running 2.4KM run now, I would sure fall flat. That being said, I have to really start training hard because my Instructor Qualification Course is starting soon. That means, I have to take the Fitness Test, the SOC and PASSING THEM to qualify myself as an Instructor.
I started watching the Taiwanese Drama "Knock Knock Loving You" yesterday and it is really a good drama. You guys should catch it if you people are free! Oh yeah, If you guys have any good dramas to introduce to me, you can always message me... especially since I'm running out of dramas to watch. GOOD dramas actually. It's ironic how my command of chinese has gone rusty especially when I've been watching Chinese dramas recently. Taiwanese Dramas to be exact. You people can also introduce good Koreans dramas and Japanese dramas too!
I really can't stand people who whin all day. Like really, if you know you have to change, then start changing yourself for the better! What's the point of posting messages that attract attention or for the purpose of gaining others' compassion? Scolding yourself won't make your life any happier anyway. Besides, it's really annoying in my opinion. I'm sorry if I sound really mean here, especially when I was guilty of such acts in the past.
By the way, Happy National Day to all the dear readers and friends out there! Have a good day ahead.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Post no.4 - "Instructor"
Many of my friends commented on how lucky I was to be selected as an Instructor but that is really not the case. Maybe on the surface, the life of an instructor is less taxing to most and very often, you get to see them roaming around doing nothing. That is, however, not the case. Being an Instructor may be less physically taxing, as in we don't do as much drills and physical activities as compared to our counterparts in other camps. Despite so, we experience much more pressure from the high ups to "level up" our knowledge to the maximum. What they do not realise, very often, is that we are still "newbies", as in we just joined the family not long ago. True enough, our rank might suggest that we are well-versed in our field but that does not mean that we are perfect or rather, we have to be perfect.
I believe no one if perfect, the irony is that people around us seek for perfection. Give us some time, to build up our knowledge. Maybe one batch, maybe two. I can't guarantee when, but I know we are definitely trying our best. It's very disheartening to see or hear the negative comments from many groups of higher ups. We as Instructors follow a set of directives set up by our head, it is very saddening to see how people are abusing their authority to actually, abuse us and to command us on changing on our training to their discretions.
Starting from tomorrow, I am embarking on trainings regarding Outfields and Navigations. I am looking forward to training my cadets to be well anchored in basics. At the same time, I also hope that I can improve myself, to be a better instructor. I might not be able to blog frequently as these few weeks are packed with night trainings. So.. until then!
I believe no one if perfect, the irony is that people around us seek for perfection. Give us some time, to build up our knowledge. Maybe one batch, maybe two. I can't guarantee when, but I know we are definitely trying our best. It's very disheartening to see or hear the negative comments from many groups of higher ups. We as Instructors follow a set of directives set up by our head, it is very saddening to see how people are abusing their authority to actually, abuse us and to command us on changing on our training to their discretions.
Starting from tomorrow, I am embarking on trainings regarding Outfields and Navigations. I am looking forward to training my cadets to be well anchored in basics. At the same time, I also hope that I can improve myself, to be a better instructor. I might not be able to blog frequently as these few weeks are packed with night trainings. So.. until then!
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Post No.3 - "Grey"
I remember people asking me about why I put the colour grey as my nickname. There are several reasons to this. Before I officially announce it as my nick, I came across a phrase that is similar to the one below,
" What I see from my eyes are usually grey in colour. Not totally tainted but neither are they totally pure too."
This sentence left a very deep impression in me. Sometimes, we tend to look at things from single angles, making things worse than what they actually are. It's easy for one to claim that he/she wants to be objective, to be fair at handling issues. Very often though, when our loved ones are involved, our judgement tends to be bias. I, myself has been teaching people on different subject matters, be it guiding them on social issues, military knowledge or purely academics. I've seen many instructors, including me getting too emotional at times when we are involved or our loved ones suffered in the hands of injustice. That proves how hard it is to stay objective, to ensure that our judgement is always fair.
Back to the reason why I decided to add in Grey as one of my nicks, this nick was actually given by one of my Instructors to me back in my trainee days. My instructor couldn't pronounce my name "Gareth" properly, and hence always ended up calling me "Grey". As time pass by, this became my not-so-official name and was used by my instructor whenever he was looking for me.
Btw, in case you people are wondering, Gareth IS my official english name. I've explained it countless time to many different people. I'm too lazy to actually type out the entire story here so if you want to know why I adopted this name, you can give me a call or just messaged me on MSN. I would most likely be back only on Saturday as I have Guard Duty on Friday, meaning my friday night is once again, burnt.
I will end this entry with one particular quote that I love,
"The only easy day was yesterday."
Good night, people. I love you guys "deep deep" !
" What I see from my eyes are usually grey in colour. Not totally tainted but neither are they totally pure too."
This sentence left a very deep impression in me. Sometimes, we tend to look at things from single angles, making things worse than what they actually are. It's easy for one to claim that he/she wants to be objective, to be fair at handling issues. Very often though, when our loved ones are involved, our judgement tends to be bias. I, myself has been teaching people on different subject matters, be it guiding them on social issues, military knowledge or purely academics. I've seen many instructors, including me getting too emotional at times when we are involved or our loved ones suffered in the hands of injustice. That proves how hard it is to stay objective, to ensure that our judgement is always fair.
Back to the reason why I decided to add in Grey as one of my nicks, this nick was actually given by one of my Instructors to me back in my trainee days. My instructor couldn't pronounce my name "Gareth" properly, and hence always ended up calling me "Grey". As time pass by, this became my not-so-official name and was used by my instructor whenever he was looking for me.
Btw, in case you people are wondering, Gareth IS my official english name. I've explained it countless time to many different people. I'm too lazy to actually type out the entire story here so if you want to know why I adopted this name, you can give me a call or just messaged me on MSN. I would most likely be back only on Saturday as I have Guard Duty on Friday, meaning my friday night is once again, burnt.
I will end this entry with one particular quote that I love,
"The only easy day was yesterday."
Good night, people. I love you guys "deep deep" !
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Post No.2 - " I like beautiful things! "
I came across my friend's little sister's profile page just recently on Facebook and I've gotta admit, she's pretty. I find it hard to talk to people who are frequently surrounded by their friends or peers. To put it simply, I don't mingle well with famous personnels or over egoistic people. Despite so, I do enjoy browsing through their photos or their articles( for those famous bloggers ) on their blog. Don't get me wrong, I'm in no way a stalker.
Oh, did I mention that I used to have a crush on this pretty girl in my school? It was during my secondary school days and most of my friends admired her. Due to their influences, I found myself falling for her too. Blah. I was really awkward whenever I talked to her and I guess I made her feel creepish after a while because I was avoiding her. Haha. That's me man, a guy who is just too shy to be the one taking the initiative. I wonder whether I will ever get a girlfriend by behaving like this? Haha!
Btw, I find myself addicted to the song "Heaven" these days. It is a song sang by Ayumi Hamasaki quite a while back but I guess I really do like how Ayumi performed the song. The top 2 singers of the decades would definitely have to be Ayumi Hamasaki and Leona Lewis! Leona Lewis sang really well, her voice and all reach touches me. Plus plus, she performs really well for her live concerts. Few of her songs that I enjoy listening to are "A Moment Like This", "Run" and "I got go".
I would pick Leona Lewis over Kelly Clarkson anytime man! Ok, I know that this is totally out of nowhere.
Oh, did I mention that I used to have a crush on this pretty girl in my school? It was during my secondary school days and most of my friends admired her. Due to their influences, I found myself falling for her too. Blah. I was really awkward whenever I talked to her and I guess I made her feel creepish after a while because I was avoiding her. Haha. That's me man, a guy who is just too shy to be the one taking the initiative. I wonder whether I will ever get a girlfriend by behaving like this? Haha!
Btw, I find myself addicted to the song "Heaven" these days. It is a song sang by Ayumi Hamasaki quite a while back but I guess I really do like how Ayumi performed the song. The top 2 singers of the decades would definitely have to be Ayumi Hamasaki and Leona Lewis! Leona Lewis sang really well, her voice and all reach touches me. Plus plus, she performs really well for her live concerts. Few of her songs that I enjoy listening to are "A Moment Like This", "Run" and "I got go".
I would pick Leona Lewis over Kelly Clarkson anytime man! Ok, I know that this is totally out of nowhere.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Post No.1 - "I'm Back"
It's been a while since I last blogged. I'm feeling really nostalgic after reading one of my friend's blog, so much so that I decided to create a new blog for myself. As far as I'm concern, I don't see the need of having too many readers following my blog. Besides, I myself, have no idea when I'll stop updating this blog.
Let's start off by introducing myself once again to all the new readers, friends who have lost contact with me for a long time and all my dear friends who have been with me through the ups and downs of my life.
I'm Ren Wei, you guys can call me Gareth. I'm currently serving my National Service as an instructor in the Specialist Cadet School. After I'm done with serving the NS, I'll be furthering my study in NBS (Nanyang Business School). Pursuing a career in the management sector has always been my life-long dream. I love playing basketball and I picked up the hobby of reading just recently. I love watching dramas and I'm pretty much family-orientated as well.
"A stranger to strangers"
The above sentence pretty much sums up who I am, an average Joe who is introverted in nature. Friends who know me understand that I don't usually talk to strangers. It is not that I dislike making new friends, but I'm usually too shy to do so. However, do not be afraid to approach me for I'm generally nice and would love to make more friends. I do not judge people but I do agree that first impression matters a lot.
As I update this blog progressively, you guys will get to know the "real" me better. I hope you guys(or ladies) enjoy your stay here.
"Never explain -- your friends do not need it and your enemies will not believe you anyway." - Elbert Hubbard (1856-1915)
Let's start off by introducing myself once again to all the new readers, friends who have lost contact with me for a long time and all my dear friends who have been with me through the ups and downs of my life.
I'm Ren Wei, you guys can call me Gareth. I'm currently serving my National Service as an instructor in the Specialist Cadet School. After I'm done with serving the NS, I'll be furthering my study in NBS (Nanyang Business School). Pursuing a career in the management sector has always been my life-long dream. I love playing basketball and I picked up the hobby of reading just recently. I love watching dramas and I'm pretty much family-orientated as well.
"A stranger to strangers"
The above sentence pretty much sums up who I am, an average Joe who is introverted in nature. Friends who know me understand that I don't usually talk to strangers. It is not that I dislike making new friends, but I'm usually too shy to do so. However, do not be afraid to approach me for I'm generally nice and would love to make more friends. I do not judge people but I do agree that first impression matters a lot.
As I update this blog progressively, you guys will get to know the "real" me better. I hope you guys(or ladies) enjoy your stay here.
"Never explain -- your friends do not need it and your enemies will not believe you anyway." - Elbert Hubbard (1856-1915)
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)